My life my life

The year is over and most of my surroundings have changed. Ma Dukes always told me change is good and what dosent kill you makes you stronger and blah blah blah. The boy is officially in HS and that is a whole "nutha" blog. My living situation has changed and has the potential to change again. I have learned to minimize the things I cant control and not let them stress me. Ive learned to remember the things that didnt work for me in the past and try not to repeat them. Ive learned that every plans, plan needs a back up plan. Ive also learned to buy a case of beer instead of 6 packs, fill your gas tank up instead of 5 dollars here, 10 dollars there, in some cases .50 on pump 1. The theme for this year is to save money, I have plenty of snowboarding to do this winter and a trip to Barbados this summer. Balancing finances is similar to putting a puzzle together, its super hard at first but once you get the base down it becomes easier and easier, to not live paycheck to paycheck is the ultimate goal. I have several people in my corner to guide and assist in this department. (thanks guys). Ive surrounded myself with a crew of smart progressive inspiring, motivating goal oriented people. It might sound a bit planned and calculated but somehow it seemed to work out like that to my benefit. My worst fear for the future is to be broke. In order for that not to happen I have to move in slow calculated methodical movements. Are you guys ready for the new improved 2011 Scootermonk?

So once again here I am keyboard in my hand speaking to my people, things have been mad hectic in the life and times of Scootermonk, the world is changing so ima let it change and just ride the wave and see where I end up. The most high has been guiding me in the right direction. A mustard seed of faith is all you need right? Be careful on that edge before you fall. Its seems like I can't please err'body and vice versa. The things I need to work on are the same things that are being done to me. I am the biggest believer in karma so I try to live my life accordingly, it dosent always work out but its what my mouth says. Ive been able to see how living right has its advantages because I give with my heart and I give with soul, some people might not see it but thats what I strive to do. My intentions are always golden even if the resuls arent. My life isnt an illusion, The times are only in my mind. No matter how hard I try to be (no pun) Im a hopeless romamtic (arent we all?)But when the Spidey sense starts tingling and and things dont seem right, I have questions and those questions need answers. I have high dreams and aspirations dont you? I often shoot for the high heavens and only reach the nets at the bottom of the rim but hey, call me Jumping Jack Ass. I have often been told I have a twisted sence, cents, since of reality but it seems to work for me.

Its Tha Same As It Ever Was

YO - Its been A long time I shouldn't have left you, without an ill blog to read to. Due to overwhelming response from my ever-loving fans....It feels good to be back. Lets start with the reasons for the hiatus. Changed jobs, addresses and friends. I spent so much time trying to get out of the box when what i should have been focusing on was how to make inside the box work better, back to basics, Iron my clothes at night set my alarm, read at least one article on politics and or the plight of Black folks. Take my lunch to work, save save and save more money. I used to speak things into existence, like I want that new drop top BMW. I want to take a trip to Cuba which I found out really isn't that expensive. The most important step that had me tripping was that communication is the key, I fell back into keeping it to myself mode an that can be very destructive for a person. Ive been caught up in trying to get myself out of trouble and not let anybody help, obviously I couldn't do it and alot of people are upset. Blame it on me being a man, blame of my stupidity and or stubbornness. I have spent a lot of time being my own psychologist and now I understand why they go to school for such matters. I used to have a great friend who decided for one reason or another that our friendship had taken a course that they deemed to much and once that decision was made I was effectively shut down with no explanation. I asked for the reason but got none. I was kinda mad at myself for letting someone get so close to me. I'm usually a good judge of character and can sniff out the importers, I keep my circle close, many acquaintances and associates but only few actual friends make it to my A-List, Its a rigorous process to be a honored member of the Scooter Monk Friends club, so imagine my surprise at the mental slip up on my end. I have to remember that everyone doesn't have my same mindset on the ways of the world. So know Im in a good space with good people, people who have my best interest at heart, people who tell you what you need to hear and not what you want to hear and for that I thank you all

Back to Business

Its been a minute since we have chatted, my creative juices have been frozen. Alot of my peeps have been on me to continue my rants and raves. Baltimore just had a crazy snowstorm that left everything but liquor stores shut down for about a week. Side streets are still done in. The only reason my street is clear is because the neighbors all chipped in and cleared the block. I love Baltimore because just like roaches we are gonna survive, the man at the store was selling food stamps, the dude down the block had a deal on frozen turkey wings, the lady two doors down always has some fresh bread straight off the truck. Most of my friends and family members are oh so quick to diss Baltimore, but to them I say "How you gonnna carry it?" we have our own culture/ language and style. Ive been in Baltimore for about 10 years and can honestly say I Love It here. Ive been to several other cities from Tuskegee, Alabama to Rio de Jenario, Brazil and can say, B-More baby. I LOVE IT.

Ill never ever tell anybody anything you say!

I have or should I say had a true blue confidant, I mean I could tell this person anything and I just knew It would ever get out. I used to love going to my confidants house with a six pack of Corona's and a whole bunch of things to get off my chest. I knew I would get an honest opinion, not the one I always wanted to hear but probably the one that was sincere and from the heart. The more I opened up to my confidant, the more relaxed I felt that I could really get deep things off my chest. My confidant was like my lawyer, I could tell them anything and it was good. Well Imagine my surprise when a mutual fried pulled my card about something I had only told my confidant? I was floored? This couldn't be? Someone I had put complete trust and faith in over the years could throw me under the bus? The killer part about the whole thing is the information shared was so trivial and more like and inside joke. The mutual friend is upset but willing to forgive (maybe) and I'm left with a ex confidant. Well I guess its back to me being a secret squirrel. The sessions will be missed and my trust level for anyone else being a confidant is pretty much at zero. I guess if I ever decided to have a confidant again, I would make sure they don't know anybody that I associate with, maybe like an old lady in Saskatchewan or on the boot in Italy.