I can see clearly now.

WOW – First of all I would like to apologize to all 718 people who have been reading my rants and raves. I didn’t realize. I love to write or vent about the things that really piss me off or “get my goat”, “Grind my gears” or whatever. Only a few responded directly to the post so I figured it was only a few like minded souls. Lately I’ve really turned into this guy who has been trying to keep it real with himself and let me tell you, its way harder than I thought, So know that I am holding myself to a higher standard , I can only demand that from the people in my life right? So here we go, I expect to lose a few of you as friends but hopefully you guys will accept me for the person im morphing into. I don’t have time for the BS. I have too many other things to worry about than your BS, please shoot straight with me. Ill give people a few chances because I was probably the king of all BS’ers and we somehow made it through right? Maybe it’s me turning into a grumpy old man? It’s almost like I can see right through people and before where I didn’t give an EFF, now im looking at it like disrespect, like why would you even form your lips to say that like im stupid. One of my biggest problems is always trying to please everybody make sure the people are happy even if it puts me in a bind but I don’t always get that back in return. Im still gonna take the path of least resistance but how we deal with each other is gonna be different.

Ive Never Seen A Man Cry Until Ive Seen A Man Die

The funny thing about blogging is that it consumes your whole 8 hour work day. I have so much to do when I get off work, when does my friggin boss expect me to blog?

I was hurt by this news on several levels.(these levels arent in any particular order) One being the fact that I am a avid redskins fan and he was a hard-hitting MO-FO. Second is the fact that he leaves behind a new family. Thirdly is the fact that this is another blackman lost to nonsence. I myself being a blackman have lost several friends and relatives to nonsence. I hate to admit it but I automatically assumed this was another case of black on black crime. They dont have any witnesses or clues for that matter so why would I think such a thing? Have I been systematically programmed by..."The Man" Ive been in a daze for the last few couple of days thinking to much. Ive been enjoying reading other blogs. You guys keep me on point. Its Friday night and im on my way to an old head party to re-invigorate my soul. Ill finish this later its almost 5 O'clock.

202AM - Back from the old head party. It did the trick in getting me back to my regular self. I love to listen to older folks, they have alot of knowledge, I was told Im to young to have such deep thoughts, I need to take a deep breath and let some of the weight of the world off my shoulders and sip my Remy a tad bit slower to appreciate the taste. Life is way to short. Tipsy old folks have tons of advice. They knew off the break the killers were black. I attempted to throw the "your generalizing" curveball which they immediatley knock out of the park. I think the general consensus was that I need to live and learn a little more. As they cracked jokes and reminisced about how they used to be just like me, I stubbornly told them that times have changed and its not how it used to be WAY back in the day. I was sent to the store for ice and cigerettes. I guess the more things change the more they stay the same.

P.S. Not one but two lazy eyes?